iNcOmPlEtE!!

Now after 4 months iam bak ! four months-- i have jumped 2 jobs for one reason or another ,i have to move on and one.....to be honest i was searching happiness !!

Happiness
when i was a child ,happiness meant to be holidays and choclates!
whn i was a teenager it was something i got with my friends
now am an young lady and i donno what happiness is and from where i can get that!

now am pathethic looking for the defenition of happiness!
ya i got one too !
"Happiness ia an emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy."

ya thats a feeling we experience from satisfaction yep its that am an incomplete s/w engr!
i dont want to be!
i want to dissovle myself into the world of colors!
ya am experiencing that feelin when im searching colors, searching for paintings....sitting and dreamin about mixing them to make patterns of life!


I am incomplete in all sense!

ma day!

tese days ma blog is havin an attitude lik "I AM THE ONE" its all centered arnd me! wanna change tat! oki so let me start with ma office !
ya...name is still dere im not gonna change im still jobless nerd with a job!!
im workin in confer ma team consists of 5 members!
our tL is mary
im sittin nxt to amru in a safe Zone..:)
back side of me sonali a charater who cant understand a word in malayalam !!! hoppin i can get sm bengoli frm her!
nxt to tat swapu
back side od swappu mary!
tats the way v sit over here !
nd apart frm ma preious job the only thg is tat ma fav sites are not blocked so tat i can play in orangeshark ,i can do ma regular orkuttin, i can chk for neweest of newest mails!
the current trnd of mine goes like http://www.orangeshark.com/ u can as many games nd win as many badges evn tough i havnt won a silver badge i would continue playing !
all ppl over here r good! but i donno y i cant b close to dem dere is som distance alwayz! v used to share our food v used to explan te funny tngs happend arnd v used to exchange recepices still some tng is missin! mayb i m missin ma old dayz tats y te distance!
im updatin ma blog with a notime so tere ill b lot of spellin mistakes plzz read correctin ma blog!he he!bubyeeee!

I am in DEeeeP SHiT!!!!

my lyf is disgusting!!!!
i dont knw wat to write im aggressiv im showin anger im in deep shit!!
i m nw feelin to live in tis shit forever !so i dont want to care abt ma apperence ma way! i lik to b smelly ! i dont want nyone to come over me i dont want nyone i want to liv in tis shiT !!
im nw in such a shit1 i hav spoiled ma lyfe nw the cracks i cant make up!
i want to cry im not able to i want to run away to a new palace where no one will get me!
or else i want to b mad so i dont want to bother abt nythg!!
madness----the state which can make us float !or to roll back to the mothers womb or else a state of dream livin in tat wonderland!
god im prayin let sm miracle happen in me ma lyf i m callin tat angel which gives me wings to fly!
wats happennin to me!
i want ma tose dayz bak!i want it im gettin mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recovering..........!!!

living for somebody gives some happiness! bt not living for myself draws me into deep shit!
im not starting pilosphy bt still life makes me typ so.

ya lik ma blog im also bored to the end with a new job, new frnds nd new collegues..still im missing somethg a lot
ma dear old ones ma dear royal gang !
ery night giving a histry calss of ma college nd ma frnds to ma room mates im tried ! nd i used to sleep till 8.30am nd being late from the second week to the new company- divya is being the same!
changes ! changes! changes!
come into ma lyf plzz! god almighty giv me new enrgy mak me look good mak me slim make me cute lead ma way!
prayin lik tis im rowin the boat with out a destiny!
tats watz insid ma mind!

now to the real world!
im happy nw im free i can roam arnd the city im havin money ! im havin a home with an anty nd uncle as ma gaurdians nd two frnds as ma sisters to whom i can talk talk nd talk abt anythg nd erythg under the sky !!!
im havin pone im havin seat im havin s/m all of mine.
ya...im happy with al tese!

NB:dear belladonna nd gikkz im recoverin to ma self ill call u ppl soon! :)

ill b back with anothr blog! nthg interstin is happin arnd me or in ma lyf tats y im bloging crapZ!

Searching..Searching....nd Searching!!!

yep....long after m back with a new post!

ya searching to find somethg out from tis lyf!

im tired with tis lyf! nthg to do ! im jobless!
i can say im not jobless bt im jobless!! nt makin a mess....

hey frdz!
(i donno hw many of ma frds do read ma blog bt i hop sm unknown ones while creeping into ma profile will go trgh tis...atleast trgh te topmost post so im writing writin for tose unknwn ones nd ma pleasure!)

ya..commin to the point ooooooooooooooh..shooooooooooooooo somethg is pullin me from writin tose! nyway frds im now at te gr8 cochin!

havin some good times! gaining some good experience gettin along with a new gang of frds erythg is cool!

ya...ssssuupper coolll outside nd inside....i wanna tell tose i wanna share things....
but minnu haveto hold her tounge for some reasons!

["ill call u soon my dear belladonna" (shes ma frd! dear outsiders! oopss..sorry as ur readin ur ma frd)
someones pretty nxtdoor neighbour! hey this is te only way to make u understand its u!]


tats somethg of personal sort ! sorry for insertig tose!

Being here for the third day ill tel wat i did for te past 2 days
i visited current books showroom got two books
ya...i spent money to buy !
madhavikuttys diarykurupukal tats a regional book madhavi kutty is familar to english readers as kamala das ! shes ma fav writer!
ps: if nyone z planning to get me som presents go for her books i like them a lot!

nd another one classic gothic stories from david blair
hav sme good stories!
i liked madmans manuscript by charles dickens !
tat inspired me to write somethg! ill include tat in some post!

roamed around menaka for ppl out from cochin tats marine drive!
hmm....
ya i hav to mention abt ma room mates v four sharing a room due to the shifts v seldom meet all since im jobless i m te only one takin care of all!:p

v talked abt a lot of tngs now M & R got a fairly good idea abt me! tats good i dont want to act more!
Erythg is in a tied up situation tat i cant say more abt myself!

nyway more for this post ill c on nxt post
ill try to include ma creativities too....ahem ahem..stopin...no more!!!!

Another day too!!!

Yep another day too!!
i wanna sm changes in ma lyf i lik to change!! ya
"without change life doesnt exit!!"
i hav read tis qoute smwhere in ma 8th std malayalam txt book!
y i startd abt change???mm......tdy wen i wok i was tinkin y cant i change!
so in te bed im tninkin abt te change (u knw i tnk a lot ;))........zzzzzz....zzz!
suddenly i heard a knok n ma door nd sm sarcastic remarks!!!hey minnz wots happenin!
ya i got to understand wats happnin ! its already 10'o clock! ppl u hav to not tat ma offic tim is 9.00.!!! so nyway i cant go dere tdy i decided coz i want to tak sm decisions to chang..na..mmm...!!!! understand me!!!!

yep! i opnd ma sys! nd im chattin playin exploring!! it goes on!

no chang at all im poor in decision makin i not a pragmatic person nd all tese makes me a jobless nerd!!! tats ma mom calls me!!

hey i got into a new site whicz interestin...
try tis *ppl who r lik me*http://interactive.mugglenet.com/

first post!!

Finally after diff rounds of toughts I ME MINNU decided to blog!
i love readin blogs ! nd its one of ma untold hobbies !

its been 2 weeks im sittin simply in frnt of an as/400 emulator! its sick really sick!!

(for tose who donno wats tis as/400 ill explain latr)

doin nothing not even movin frm ma chair! god dnt giv tis pleasur evn to ma enimies! once in a while i try to browse ill b welcomed with the screen:

"ITS TIME FOR IBM_MF & AS/400
.ACESS IS DENIED!!!!"

Horrible rt!
so i cant browse ma regular sites! not even i can sms nybdy ,u knw im joblesss!
so the whole day siting nd starin it goes on! ill b relesd fr lunch i ll b runnin to meet ma friends ! bt since ma stomach is roarin ill b more keen to knw wats goin insid te kitchn of amb!!!

sinc i don want to see te emulator tdy, i startd googlin frm the mornin itself nd i ended up in blog! nd ended up in this ting!

m windin fr te day!