Men...Men..Men!!!

"Men are obnoxious, arrogant, entitled, violent, stinky, crass, loudmouthed, stupid, craven, bragadocious, thoughtless, unreflective, abusive, selfish, lowbrow, willfully ignorant assholes." yea..most of them are....


Its not that I hate men....but..this is what ma present situation..make me type!! I know I am sounding childish here…!


I prefer to go with personhood. I know this is a paradox after what I have typed already..but that’s what I prefer…

I had to come across some bad mouthed gossiping guys….and am fuming here coz of some experiences I got today!!

I was pouring out ma worries and irritations to ma friend and his opinions and suggestion were unbearable! I am so sad…that I have got very few girly best friends!! (:( :()

****************some thoughts!!!*************************

Do women in real have the freedom to express all the feelings and thoughts?

I had to deal with real bad comments for expressing ma thoughts....and I feel pathetic when some girls keep their mouth shut scared of the comments from the so called males of our society!

Why is it hard for some men to think of their opposite gender as equal to them...having all the emotions ,feelings, thoughts... like they do!

I don’t want anybody to treat women as delicate beings on the earth. Even after saying so, those men hurt women to the core..which she survives all the time!

We can deal with all sorts of physical and mental breakdowns and we don want ny kind of sympathy.

why is it that some men even living n this century think...girls are supposed to liv under the roof of kitchen...cookin and serving them ?
yea..there is a mistake…in abov sentence….in present time, men expect women to earn too….so for tht...she can liv outside the roof of kitchen for 9 hours a day!![may b am wrong here..but...its true atleast among the middle/upper middle class conservative societies ]

I know things have changed a lot now…still there are women..who hav to suffer…

Today…I came across a lady who talked to me about her family…and her recent tensions. She have to take care of her full family…Her man was a coward who ran away with another girl after giving his wife an year long injury by hitting hard in her abdomen … When she was talking she was all worried about her old mom. Recently her mom had to undergo some kinds of harassment from the security of nearby building…!!! Her mother is 72 year old….and tht old lady ends up siting inside the house all day..till her daughter arrives back. Its hard to believe that there are people living under fear even in bright day light!!

Fear! Fear! Fear! Why cant we overcome this emotion? and surprise ourselves with a good life!

Voices in ma head!

Ha!!

Thinking of writing something to ma blog after a long fight with me and the insane voices in ma head!

I donno how many people in his world hear voices inside them...

I have 4 kinds of voice...inside me... and the fifth voice is of mine! which I use to fight with the imposed wills of ma life! which becomes the sole cause for all the voices!

1. one From temporal lobe of ma brain.
2. another one from occipital lobe
3. one in frontal lobe.
4. inside ma heart!

NOw I tell you what all thses voices do to me....I havent called them any names as I dont love them!

for nw lemme name them...am very bad at naming somthg....I think I will go with 1,2, 3, and 4

the first voice kicks in when I read some interesting book...as if it finds pleasure in asking unnecessary questions while am reading!

the second one jumps in the middle of some first voice and they will start fighting ! trying make me insane!

the third is much better than the first two .....it will rescue me from the first two say a stop and a conclusion ! but third one is not always good...sometimes 3 is the problem starter...putting in topics like loneliness, madness, love, passion, lust, happiness, weirdness....I dunno always it will have voice to make fight with ma fourth and final voice in ma heart!

And the fourth one..I think thats the intuition as the people say....which is supposed to b the right and the safest one!

iNcOmPlEtE!!

Now after 4 months iam bak ! four months-- i have jumped 2 jobs for one reason or another ,i have to move on and one.....to be honest i was searching happiness !!

Happiness
when i was a child ,happiness meant to be holidays and choclates!
whn i was a teenager it was something i got with my friends
now am an young lady and i donno what happiness is and from where i can get that!

now am pathethic looking for the defenition of happiness!
ya i got one too !
"Happiness ia an emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy."

ya thats a feeling we experience from satisfaction yep its that am an incomplete s/w engr!
i dont want to be!
i want to dissovle myself into the world of colors!
ya am experiencing that feelin when im searching colors, searching for paintings....sitting and dreamin about mixing them to make patterns of life!


I am incomplete in all sense!

ma day!

tese days ma blog is havin an attitude lik "I AM THE ONE" its all centered arnd me! wanna change tat! oki so let me start with ma office !
ya...name is still dere im not gonna change im still jobless nerd with a job!!
im workin in confer ma team consists of 5 members!
our tL is mary
im sittin nxt to amru in a safe Zone..:)
back side of me sonali a charater who cant understand a word in malayalam !!! hoppin i can get sm bengoli frm her!
nxt to tat swapu
back side od swappu mary!
tats the way v sit over here !
nd apart frm ma preious job the only thg is tat ma fav sites are not blocked so tat i can play in orangeshark ,i can do ma regular orkuttin, i can chk for neweest of newest mails!
the current trnd of mine goes like http://www.orangeshark.com/ u can as many games nd win as many badges evn tough i havnt won a silver badge i would continue playing !
all ppl over here r good! but i donno y i cant b close to dem dere is som distance alwayz! v used to share our food v used to explan te funny tngs happend arnd v used to exchange recepices still some tng is missin! mayb i m missin ma old dayz tats y te distance!
im updatin ma blog with a notime so tere ill b lot of spellin mistakes plzz read correctin ma blog!he he!bubyeeee!

I am in DEeeeP SHiT!!!!

my lyf is disgusting!!!!
i dont knw wat to write im aggressiv im showin anger im in deep shit!!
i m nw feelin to live in tis shit forever !so i dont want to care abt ma apperence ma way! i lik to b smelly ! i dont want nyone to come over me i dont want nyone i want to liv in tis shiT !!
im nw in such a shit1 i hav spoiled ma lyfe nw the cracks i cant make up!
i want to cry im not able to i want to run away to a new palace where no one will get me!
or else i want to b mad so i dont want to bother abt nythg!!
madness----the state which can make us float !or to roll back to the mothers womb or else a state of dream livin in tat wonderland!
god im prayin let sm miracle happen in me ma lyf i m callin tat angel which gives me wings to fly!
wats happennin to me!
i want ma tose dayz bak!i want it im gettin mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!