I wonder Y...

I wonder y...i wonder? I know this is not sane !

I wonder why..i get close to strangers..
Is it that I love getting hurt..
or is it that..I hope...there will be a new beginning..
But nothing have really ended well in my life its just faded away or just ended abruptly with a pain.

I wonder why i brood over the past...
I have plenty of things to plan for the future..
I have tonnes of stories to pen down..
I wish I could write better..

I wonder why I ask questions to stone idol..
knowing I have answers inside me..

I wonder why I am not an atheist..?
I know I don't believe in omnipresent god!

There are more things...but...I donno what those things are....:( !